On Writing: Growth Through Resistance

I have a confession to make. I hate writing. It scares the shit out of me. Since I started this blog a four years ago, I’ve had hundreds of ideas but they’ve remained stuck in my head. When I finally muster up the courage to start writing and I commit to a post, I tend to over analyze every word, every sentence, every paragraph. I always know what I want to write but the words don’t flow easily. Every post seems to take hours. The voice in my head is always doubting and questioning. What will people think of me? What if I’m wrong? What if my grammar is incorrect? Who will disagree with me? What if I offend someone? Who is actually going to read this? The simple act of writing comes naturally and is liberating for others but it’s paralyzing for me. That sucks. It feels awful. I’m sick and tired of holding myself back and giving in to the voice in my head. 

After some reflection over the last few weeks, I’ve decided that being open honest with myself and facing my anxieties will eventually lead to greater fulfillment and personal growth. For many years, I’ve used my phobia of writing as an excuse not to share my thoughts with others. This negative mindset has admittedly weighed me down with inaction, anxiety and self doubt. If I don’t fight this perceived weakness and face it head on, I’ll never be able to grow personally, improve as a writer and share my ideas with family, friends, colleagues and strangers. What a shame that would be. Those days are over starting right now. I’m making a commitment to myself to start writing more frequently. I’m finished caring what people think. I’m finished worrying about perfect grammar. I’m finished comparing my writing to others. I’m finished holding myself back. I want to grow. I want to share my ideas. I want to learn. I want to write from the heart. I want this for myself.  

On Demand Everything

A few weeks ago, I wrote about the “Uberfication” of the U.S. service economy. Given the positive response from founders, investors and the broader tech community, my partners at RRE invited me to speak about this investment theme at our annual meeting this afternoon.  As part of my talk, I prepared a high level presentation which summarizes the opportunity (see embed below).  As always, would love to hear your questions, comments and / or feedback.  We’re always looking to get smarter about how mobile is simplifying our lives and reshaping our economy.     

https://www.slideshare.net/schlaf/on-demand-everything

My Goals for 2014

A mentor once told me that I should always jot down my intentions and goals so I can hold myself accountable and track my progress in life. Despite this sound advice, I’ve never taken the time to write down my personal and professional goals even though I always enjoy discussing them with others during the holiday season.  

With 2014 less than a day away, it’s time to finally buck this trend and put the proverbial pen to paper.  I’m doing it for three reasons.  First, I intend to check this list throughout the year to see how I’m doing relative to what I think is important right now.  Second, if I make my goals public, I’ll likely feel a big sense of failure if I don’t tackle everything I set out to accomplish.  Finally and most importantly, I hope you’ll get to know me better based on the areas I’m focused on and the things I’d like to achieve in 2014. 

Without further ado: 

Life    

  1. Read one book per month: Because reading tech and business blogs alone doesn’t really feed my brain.   
  2. Travel to two new countries: I’ve found the best way to learn about the world is by experiencing it. 
  3. Volunteer twice per month: Adopt a non-profit and contribute on a monthly basis so I can give back and feel good about it. 
  4. Attend two intensive classes: Explore areas of interest such as painting, cooking, and graphic design.  
  5. Spend less time working at home: Throughout 2013 I spent more time at home working than being focused on my life. 
  6. Get rid of clutter and focus on quality: I find the more “stuff” I get rid of the happier I become (e.g. clothes, twitter followers, etc.).
  7. Build a long term financial plan: I’ve been fortunate to save some cash but now I need to devise a long term investment plan. 

Work

  1. Blog monthly: I’ve had a longtime phobia of writing and it is time for me to get over it. 
  2. Take fewer meetings: In 2013 I took thousands of meetings so I’d like to cut that number in half and spend more time thinking, researching and creating. 
  3. Find a coach / mentor: It has been years since I have had a formal mentor and my gut tells me now is the time to find one. 
  4. Help a founder daily: assist a new founder every single day and expect nothing in return.  
  5. Launch a resource for NYC Tech: I’d like to create a new resource for the NYC tech ecosystem (think online community, newsletter, etc.). 
  6. Invest in fewer companies: I plan to be hyper selective in 2014 so I can focus on providing high-touch support to my founders. 
  7. Build RRE brand: I’m going to implement a half dozen ideas to foster community within the RRE portfolio as well the NYC tech ecosystem.